A Broken NOse

" I'm not pretty enough, with a nose so broken." Indeed, it is true....

For those of you who don't know, i will repeat my life history again. It was one of those beautiful night when everyone should be in bed. Saturday 18 september 2004, 3 am in the morning. I was down with diarrhoea and was vomitting too. Indeed, it wasn't a pleasant sight at all.. all the elegance and glamness in me just flushed down the toilet bowl. Anyway yar, kinda got choked on my own vomit i think and had difficulty breathing. Feeling weak and tired, i laid down on the toilet floor hoping i would be fine. Bad idea... i have never slept in the toilet all my life before. But thats besides the point. I must be really tired that i closed my eyes and fall asleep. That was the worst thing to do...sleeping in the toilet. The next thing that happened, i awoke laying on the toilet floor in a different position, with towels on the floor and detergent spilt everywhere. Looking at my hand, i was astonished to find blood on my hand.
I stood up and took a look in the mirror, my face was covered with blood. (Yes, this is not fictional!) I cleaned my wound and went back to bed. However, the wound kept bleeding, i wonder where i got all that blood from? Went to the doc in the morning and have it stitched up..all ready for the pirate praty later in the night. SO now, i have 5 stiches on my nose and a bandage over it, trying to make a fashion statement. THe doctor was really cool and funny though, the first thing that he said was your nose is pretty straight and it was a good cut. He gave me 2 options 1) dun stitch and have a hole as a scar or 2) Stitch and have a line as a scar. Obviously i would rather have a line as a scar. Well the doc said i must have fainted in the toilet to not be able to feel the pain. ANyway, laying on the "operating' bed is new to me. Feels exciting but of course the excitment wasn't there for long. Fear and tears took over when he injected anesthetic into the wound. It was the most painful thing on earth. But still anesthetic is one of the best invention. All i could see when he put the anesthetic was blood flowing out. Well, i must really thank JIAMIN for being there. Sorry to sqeeze your hand so hard and to look at such a gory scence of blood gushing out. I must say you are one brave girl, you could be a nurse. And to Leanne and SHi-mei, thanks for that encouragemnt and reassurance of my beauty.. HAHA! Thanks to the doctor for making everything feel so comfy and making me feel relaxed. Thanks be to god that i am still alive and for sending his angels to watch over me and let me know that i am not alone in this.
THe hardest part of the whole accident i guess is not the pain of everything. IS the fact that i have to tell my mum about it. Listening to her cry on the phone is indeed tormenting. The hardest part was breaking the news and having to have the strength to console her after that. Glad that i have been strong, many times i wanted to cry with her but nope, it would have made it worst. But well, after a storm, there is always a rainbow. so now all i can sing is:

"I am beautiful, no matter what they say. Words can't bring me down!"

To those who care: HAHA! I know you all do....Thanks mates..I am fine, alive and kicking. Still joyful and basically still JING with a huge EGO. I may have lost beauty externally, but i stil have a great inner beauty..HAHA! Try deflating that! Anyway tkae care people. One lesson i have learnt so far is : Whatever you do, never never ever fall alseep in the toilet, you never know whats gonna happen next. Cheers!