Slap some beef on the barbi......

Just had a magnificent Barbi for dinner just now. Now, I feel so guilty eating all those food slapped with thick layers of butter. Fat makes food taste fabulous. Ultimate, the fellowship between brothers and sisters was really fun and exciting and it is something that I always look forward to. Although leading Bible Study today was abit disappointing for me, as everybody else were not really enthusiastic about the study so in a way have to really reflect upon a way to add a little more enthusiasm to it. But of course, have to really admit that I myself was not really excited about it. Plus the fact that I have piles of assignment to do, the bbq was a really good way for me to just chill and get away from all the ‘troubles’ and just live in a fantasy although it is just for a short period but it is good enough.

Anyway after eating those ‘fat’ at the BBQ, I must really start exercise. Sharks! All that reading of gossip magazines is brainwashing me in thinking that being thin is good. Have you all seen the Simpsons episode where homer was listening to some English tape when he is sleeping to brainwash him such that his English becomes really good the next day. Maybe I should start recording my voice ‘I am not fat’ over and over again and listen to it when I am sleeping, maybe that will change my mindset a little. You are fat *devil jing*....NO! You are not fat at all *angel jing* Stop messing with my brain, devil and angel jings. I have to go and brainwash myself now......

' I am not fat' (repeat)

PS. Thanks Emil for describing me so well on your blog. Thanks for thinking about me daily and for dedicating a whole blog on me. You are just such a great friend. I thank you for being so encouraging and I must say that you are very creative. I thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart.....NOT!
What the heck, I am not a piece of shit!!!!