It is one of those dark and gloomy nights which makes you feel really depressed and sad. Think the cold and windy night is getting to my emotions. Darn... Seriously, I have this sudden feeling of depression for no apparent reason. Can't work out the reason! Maybe it is one of those nights in which your mind start drifting away into memories that you hold tightly too, like those times spent with family or even those carefree childhood years.

I really wonder why do such depressive emotions come out only when I am alone at night. Is it because darkness is always linked to sadness and sunshine always represent happiness? Hm.. wonder what rain represents? Oh.. I am rambling on and on again! When can I ever stop? NEVER... this is my blog and I can choose to go on and on and on and on and on and on like that never ending song that I used to sing in secondary schools. Arh... memories again! Why do they always appear at night? But then again I am always in school during the day, can't let my mind wonder away!

Memories, Past... It is funny how some people asked others to move on and not live in the past? How can we not live in the past? In fact as you are reading this, you are living in my past! In fact the present is so transient and short-lived. It is impossible to live in the present, in fact i can hardly feel it. My life revolves around the past and the future. In fact i haven thought mch about the future. Maybe i should start thinking about it. Hm.... what will i be in 10 years?
1) 32 years old
2) very old
3) Hopefully alive

Forget i won't even bother thinking about it right now. What if i don't even live past 10 years. Then all the planning will go to waste. Instead of wasting time planning for the future since i don't even know what the future lies ahead for me, and plus it is so hard to live in the present since it is so short-lived. That only leaves me with the last option...to live in my PAST. Alright think I will take some time to reflect on herstory and stop asking me to not live in the past cos thats the only option for me to live my life unless you can come out with another dimension instead of the psat, present and future!