Why search for the truth?

Had to do some research on my speech about the migration of humans. Evolution believed that apes and humans shared the same common ancestor. We have diverged a few million years ago and have evolved to be homo sapiens. US!
It is indeed a hard topic for me to research much less to even talk about it. I don't wanna lie yet i have to face up to reality- to do my work at the end of the day. Sometimes, i wonder why i have to take such a hard route, i can just give up and study evolution of animals instead. Won't it be easier? HAve i made a wrong choice right from the start? or is this just another test of my faith? It indeed pains me to read about such fallacies about the evolution of human. I just can't read on.. As tears welled up in my eyes, i still have to pen down every single 'fact' on my paper. I wonder how i am even going to read out what i wrote?
Sometimes it does makes me wonder about human brain. Is complexity or simplicity of the brain is better? Being complex-minded creatures, we can understand god's word more, on the other hand, simplicity might be better. At least we won't question futher more and think too deep and just accept the truth in the bible. Is knowledge good or bad? At least i know, knowledge causes the fall of man. Why are there so many people researching so hard trying to find the truth and reality when it is just right before their eyes. The reality is just so near them but yet we always want to create more complex thinking and theories about how we came about. Evolution is just a theory yet scientists worship it like another religon. Discoveries about humans are constantly being made, yet when will the day come when somebody can piece them all up together? If only i could simplify things by just reading out genesis in my speech. If only, they teach genesis instead of evolution. If only scientists can just stop trying to prove that evolution occurs and read the bible and even spend time proving that the bible is nothing but the pure truth. (not that it needs much prove)
Sigh, i have to get back to writing more false testimonials. All i can do now is come on bended knees and say Lord, forgive me!